Divine Now~ We are being woken up to Something /Someone

 

Not everyone is going to respond well to this and that’s okay. And when I share, please know it always comes from a very prayerful, discerning heart.

 

Twelve years ago I received a Whisper to my heart in the midst of an illness. I only knew to name this Divine Whisper, God because it was how I was raised. My parents were Presbyterian so I became Presbyterian.  Sound familiar?

 

I am extremely grateful for my church upbringing, a community that was safe, inviting and inclusive in my own experience. It was a foundation I needed.

 

Not everyone has this kind of experience and therefore they may stray or maybe they just never quite believe in this Spiritual OmniPresence of a supreme being… that seems so  far off in the distance, unapproachable and un-Real.

 

When I experienced The Whisper… I felt invited in. I didn’t “do” the inviting if that makes sense.

 

Later I came to recognize Jesus inside this Divine Whisper, the Voice that was “calling me out of the tree,” inviting me to sit awhile and share a meal. This Voice was conversing with me “at the well” letting me know my past was my past and He loved me just as I was right where I was … with Him.

 

This Divine Whisper I had to follow…

 

I had to leave the organization and structured programs and all the wordiness of the institutional church to follow The Whisper.

 

I connected with a biblical character named Paul. He allowed me to recognize my experience of this Divine Whisper, Revelation was Real Deal.

 

Let me say this… like the apostle Paul, it has NOT been an easy journey!

 

When you’ve been invited into to such Divine Intimacy, the world becomes foreign.

 

Paul had to go into the desert for a while and listen, pray and discern… just as the Desert Fathers and Mothers did. Just as Jesus did.

 

I had to walk away too because He was calling me with a message for the world. I knew it… and I have sat on this message for a long, long, long, long time.

 

I have fought Him many days and nights with tears saying, “This is not for little ole me to handle.” “Why me?” I know how Paul, Moses, Noah, Mary and Abraham felt.

 

You don’t want to believe it. You don’t feel qualified. Your excuses become an ongoing battle with God you are sure to lose.

 

Here is a prayer I wrote back in 2017, Dec. 26th.  He began giving me greater assurance that I needed to share this message. All I’ve ever prayed is that it ALL come from Him…

 

Dear God,

 

I commend this work, these collective writings of prayers to you… that you honor them and bless them according to your will, in what you are calling forth be made known through them; that the Holy Spirit pour upon these words just as the day of Pentecost- opening eyes to see new; that your Light fully shine in the darkness of this world-that hearts be awakened and enlightened as each person discovers Something new and profound… not understood through their critical minds of trying to prove it all but to find rest in your Presence where the true Word manifests. I pray these prayer-filled words will lift from the pages and into the hearts of those needing to know you… really know you. That each word be received and experienced fully coming from You; your Mystery Revealed, wisdom gained, a collective, united, universal, AHA! Amen

 

This was a prayer I wrote in 2017. God showed me the need of “A Stilling Season”. This is what He was showing me. We are in those times.

 

I will end for now a Divine Whisper that woke me last night at midnight. And I say this with all honesty. The only words I heard were “ James 1:5”. I’m like, “What?” “James 1:5”. He woke me up with His Whisper yet again…

 

I went to James 1:5~

 

 

James 1:5-8 J.B. Phillips New Testament (PHILLIPS)

 

2-8 When all kinds of trials and temptations crowd into your lives my brothers, don’t resent them as intruders, but welcome them as friends! Realise that they come to test your faith and to produce in you the quality of endurance. But let the process go on until that endurance is fully developed, and you will find you have become men of mature character with the right sort of independence. And if, in the process, any of you does not know how to meet any particular problem he has only to ask God—who gives generously to all men without making them feel foolish or guilty—and he may be quite sure that the necessary wisdom will be given him. But he must ask in sincere faith without secret doubts as to whether he really wants God’s help or not. The man who trusts God, but with inward reservations, is like a wave of the sea, carried forward by the wind one moment and driven back the next. That sort of man cannot hope to receive anything from God, and the life of a man of divided loyalty will reveal instability at every turn.

So I say…Seek Wisdom… He has all the answers if we can only discern His Voice with time well spent with Him.

I share my prayer from Paul again that has been another Divine Whisper, heartfelt and real so I sense it must be a prayer of His so I just continue praying it…

 

“I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give to you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation so that you may Know him better. “

“Be still and KNOW that I am God.”

“Acknowledge ME and I WILL make your path straight.”

He’s waking us up to HIS Wisdom Words through His Whispers to our hearts.

This is our Season of Stillness to come to KNOW Him.

Let some things go… slow down your mind… let go of control… that which is not providing peace is not God’s Voice within. This is the perfect time to go and discover His Voice, His Real, authentic Voice.

Love everyone. Stay safe and know you are so so Loved just as you are, right where you are.  

 

 

 

 

Prayer Journal March 23, 2020~ Acknowledge Me

Prayer Journal March 23, 2020

 

Dear God,

 

This feels similar to those moments during the first few weeks of my cancer diagnosis. This sacred space you formed for us. You called me into a new way of being and somehow I followed. I still wonder how that happened. I was a stay at home mom at the time, spinning through life, raising kids, volunteering and socializing, dressing the kids in smock, attending birthday parties and long hours at the park. Busy busy busy….

 

I was lost inside of busyness. Spiritually I was dead inside and did not at all know it. My “awareness” was null.

 

I had not yet “noticed” you… I later termed this…“acknowledge” as you have taught me all about this word… I had not yet “acknowledged” you. I had not yet accepted your acceptance of me. I was not admitting your True and Real existence.

 

You… You… drew me in.

 

I had “attended” church all of my life. I had shown up weekly oftentimes criticizing inwardly those that were not attending church.

 

Physically I was fully attentive but spiritually I could not have been more distant.

 

I see this now in hindsight as you’ve grown me.

 

I was running full speed on life’s orchestrated gerbil wheel.

 

You nudged me. I stepped off and began walking with you inside your unforced rhythm of grace.

 

Like the apostle Paul, Your revelation jolt redirected my attention to This Voice that I knew only to be You.

 

Like Paul, I had come to the detour of your intention for my life.

 

Like Paul, I had met my vocation, my life’s purpose. Somehow deeply I knew this yet Spirit spoke… “Discern”.

 

Being “preached to” became for me like being taught by Charlie Brown’s teacher… nothing was making sense. Words seemed jumbled and gibberish. It was not the preacher at all. I loved him and consulted with him often.

 

You were calling me to the desert, like Paul’s “Arabia”.

 

You invited me in… onto a scene that was deeply new but real. The scene of Lucy walking through the Wardrobe, into the land of Narnia felt much like my walk inside the woods that day when you spoke your whisper. I had entered a new sanctuary.

 

What I have came to realize was I was receiving a message that could only be “caught” not taught.

 

Like Paul, I needed to escape to the desert so 

to make sense of this inner pull, nudge, voice, call.

 

I am reminded of your listening moment in my prayer journal several months ago. I mark it… ( L= Listening)

 

** L ~Acknowledge defined…to accept or admit the existence or truth of

 

So I go and discern it. You define it.

 

What’s to “Know”… YOU, plain and simple.  You remove all of our fears.

 

“Acknowledge me”, turn to me, take notice of me and I will make your path straight.

 

Be still… come to Know me and I’ll show you the next steps.

 

I sense you are hoping for more “Marys” to just sit and rest at your feet awhile, to listen to what you may have to say in “these times”.

 

I get the whole Word thing as opposed to the word thing.

 

I, like Paul, am sorry we’ve gotten so lost inside religiosity and the many interpreted mumbled and memorized words out of context from your discerning Spirit.  Inspiration and Mystery has been pushed aside. I know this is not as you would have it be. We’ve lost our beautiful, loving, true Authority.

 

I am going to continue to meet you at my coffee table alter and listen for the “what’s next” for this one day.

 

I love you…

 

**L~ “In that day, you will “know”… that I am in my Father and you in me, and I in you.”

 

I wonder… are these the days many will come to “KNOW”.

 

I remain in my sacred holding pattern waiting for answers to come.  I trust in your Mystery of unanswered questions. I feel revelation is slowly manifesting.

 

Help teach us how to be still and come to know you, being inspired by your word while not “doing” so much to prove and argue it losing sight of you.

 

I have been praying for spiritual wisdom in these times. And you, Lord are our spiritual teacher.

 

Like Paul, I will continue to pray: “that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give to you the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of Him, the eyes of your understanding being enlightened; that you know what is the hope of His calling.”

 

**L  “ You have your heads in your Bibles constantly because you think you’ll find eternal life there. But you miss the forest for the trees. These Scriptures are all about me! And her I am, standing right before you, and you aren’t willing to receive from ME the life you say you want.”

 

“Do not be afraid… Peace I leave with you”…

 

Thank you Lord for your simple beautiful words.

 

In Jesus Name. Amen